猫ちゃんのキラキラ生活

1 exam and 5 chemistry tests to go.

I'm pretty sure I failed the last 2 exams and will be failing another one tomorrow. -.-;

From now on until I graduate, I will religiously study so I never fail another test/prac/exam ever again.
Like seriously.
Which will probably be for the next 3 years since I just added a year or 2 onto my course by failing.

Some genetic mishap must've given me brain cells with half the life span they normally have coz I can feel mine spontaneously combusting every few seconds.

Why can't committment and diligence be character traits of mine.
but no-ooooo.
I was given procrastination instead.

While I'm on LJ I might as well release my inner otaku for a while.

KINGDOM HEARTS 358/2 DAYS ♥♥♥
Like OH EM GEE! Where do I even begin?
All those cut scenes of Roxas and Axel eating sea-salt icecream together while watching the sun set! *spasm*

Its like a dream come true.

The graphics are surprisingly GOOD for a DS game. It actually feels like I'm playing it on the PS2 but in my hands.
THANK YOU whoever invented the R4!
It'll be nice when the english version is released, though I don't know if I'de wanna fork out money to buy it seeing as I can download it. I'm sure Square Enix are rich enough to keep producing games without me buying the one game.
When exams are finished, I'll have to extend hibernation a little longer to play 358/2 Days.

I've also being playing Tokimeki Memorial Girl's Side 2nd Season. BUAHAHAHAHA I LOVE IT!
If only dating in real life was as easy as going on dates and answering questions correctly, and levelling up your stats.
2nd Season is so much better than 1st Love though. The characters are more ermm individual and different. But the cheesiness of the guys' lines on a date doesn't change. The cheesiness actually makes me cringe.
If a guy texted me "After we parted I could still feel the warmth of your fingertips in my hand" after a date, I would dump him straightaway LOL
And the sexual innuendos! SRSLY LOL! There this thing called "Love mode" where you can poke the guy wherever you want when he walks you home from a date, and he starts blushing like crazy and says stuff like "やめて！俺ヤバくなるぞ" HA HA HA

Where did study week go!?!?

Its nearly the end of study week, and exams start next week but the most study I've done so far is maybe 3hrs max of chemistry and printing out lecture notes. -.-;
Yes I know I fail at studying, and I make this kind of post before every exam period LOL
I never learn do I.

BUT oh man I'm over the moon right now, despite exams around the corner.
Histo results for the mid semester theory and practical assessment are out and I actually almost passed the theory test!
I mean considering I'de already given up after reading the questions in the 10 minute reading time, and pulling the answers from my ass just to bullshit my way through it, 48.8% isn't half bad. And 75% in the prac, BOO YEAH!
I CAN ACTUALLY PASS THIS FUCKING UNIT!!!!

But there's always a dark cloud that just has to obscure the beaming rays of sunlight. And that dark cloud is the bane of my existence that is CHEMISTRY.
I'm repeating the damn unit for god's sake WHY DO I NOT LEARN!?!?
Once again I've left my tests to the last minute, and I've only got until the end of exam week to finish at least the 8 compulsory topic tests.
I must say they made it pretty easy to pass the unit, had I been up to date with the tests, but when you're strapped for time, having to get 80% in the tests to pass just does my head in.
Chemistry 118 is gonna get me kicked out of uni if I fail again, as my dear friend Jesse reminded me. He just has to burst my bubble everytime I see him. Don't I just love that boy.

Histopathology prac exam in 4 hours!

Once again I've procrassed my whole night away and now its 6am.
I seriously fail at studying. -.-;
BUT I did try hard for the molecular bio test yesterday and got 78%! Which means I've gotten a Distinction for the unit! YAY~!

It seems the histo prac exam is only worth 15%, thought it could ultimately be the fine point of passing or failing. I honestly think I'm gonna fail histo, which doesn't help with motivating me to study. Hopefully I can keep awake enough for the exam, but my eyes are about to close any minute now.

zzZZZ

It suddenly got really cold today, with heavy rain and wind.
It really felt like winter ♥

So I decided I'de take a nice long soak in a bathtub of hot water, and try the 半身浴 diet technique that all the models in Popteen recommend.
Its pretty much just soaking only half your body, so you can sweat and get rid of toxins from your skin.
I have to say my skin feels soft and smooth ♥
Even though its a bit of a waste of water.

I wish we had a bathtub like the ones in Japan, where you can adjust the temperature and keep the water heated.
Oh and a toilet where the seat is heated would be good too. I hate waking up early in the morning when the sun hasn't even risen yet, and I'm half asleep needing to pee and GAAAAAH the toilet seat is so fucking cold. -.-;

nope, histo results aren't out.

ARGH Can the unit coordinator just get her fat ass going and finish marking them already!!!! The semester finishes next week ffs!! The theory mid sem was 1.5 months ago and the prac mid sem was 1 month ago!!! That's PLENTY of time to mark these stupid papers and they weren't even that long. Ok fair enough she had to get a knee replacement, but she's walking around fine now!
Guess she's not renowned as a cow for nothing.

AND today I had a different lab demonstrator for med microbiology, and he is so ANAL!!! He picks on people to answer questions, and when you don't know he makes these snide little remarks. What do you think we are!? high school students!?
And if you're explaining something in your own words, but there's a specific word he wants you to use, he goes "If you wrote that in an exam I would give you a big fat 0".
WTF!? Lecturers are always banging on about using your own words and not regurgitating the textbook. ARGH he's so full of bullshit!
Worst thing is he's the unit coordinator for immunology I'm doing next semester, and also for Micrbiology in 3rd year. I was thinking of doing micro as one of my majors next year, but now I might reconsider. After the lab, everyone was like "argh so over micro! not gonna do it next year!" LOL
I really like micro and all, but he always gives really shitty lectures and if 3rd year is gonna be like that, I don't know if its worth doing it. Plus he'd be the exam marker and being so anal, it would probably be damn hard to get good marks.

WTF!!!??? SINCE WHEN DID W-INDS AND G-DRAGON COLLAORATE ON A SONG!?!?!

*phew* got that outta my system.

So I was just thinking, what exactly do I waste my time doing??
I mean, I came home at 6 and now its 2 so I've been procrassing for nearly 12 hours!!!
I think I spend ALOT of time looking for music and manga to download, reading Popteen, and obsessing about what to eat for my next meal. -__-;
This is what my life has come to.

The good thing is that my obsession with healthy eating and losing weight has actually kept me so busy that I've forgotten about the last guy lol. My main motivation to begin with was pretty much, "I'll lose lots of weight and get really hot and show him whose missing out". But now that I'm seeing results, I'm starting to feel a lot more confident with myself. I really want to get super skinny so clothes will look good on me. There's a model in Popteen and she's the CUTEST THING EVER ♥ I aspire to be like her LOL

OMG Next week is gonna be HELL. o(>A<)o
monday: molecular bio test
tuesday: histopathology prac exam
wednesday: medical microbiology prac exam
friday: haematology prac exam

HOLY SHIT I totally forgot, I think histopathology mid semester results are out!!!!!!!

I've been catching up on Skip Beat! episodes and the 2nd ending song sounded really familiar. And then it hit me!! It sounds exactly like Panic Channel's Magical Dreamer but a ballad version. I had to hunt around for Panic's CD coz it was really bugging me and the song isn't on my itunes anymore. Its so nostalgic though, listening to Panic Channel. I still remember how sad I was when Tara and Takumi left the band. LOL.

Anyway, in recent times I've gotten a little stressed with uni since the semesters finishing soon and exams coming up. I've got a practical exam every single day of next week (>A<).
I've been holed up at home most of the time if I'm not at uni, but I procrastinate waaaaaay too much. I swear its like a disease. I just can't not be procrassing. Hopefully I'll be able to get through this semester and not fail any units, though I'm dangerously close to failing Histopathology 235, the stupid fucker.

I've also been healthy eating and exercising lots for the past month or so. I'm so sick of being a fatty. I'm determined to persevere so I can be a skinny bitch the next time I go to an asian country (namely Hong Kong) and buy nice clothes. I'm so obsessed with the fashion in Popteen and Cawaii, and I'm slowly growing my hair out so I can curl it. Guess it would help if I stopped dying it blonde and killing it, but slowly getting there.

赤い糸

the red string of fate.

I believe that everyone I meet, I was fated to meet. And that I am connected to each person because of fate. Just like I also believe in the red string of fate that is connected to someone in this world that I am destined to meet.
I'm not naive enough to think that I have found that someone, but I thought that I had at least found someone that I was more closely connected to.

But I guess not.

The comment that started this cascade of events was said while I was playing 赤い糸 destiny on the DS. And then in order to get my mind off it all, I've been watching the drama of 赤い糸.
The theme song fits perfectly with how I'm feeling.

それでもいい　それでもいいと思える恋だった
戻れないと知ってても　繋がっていたくて

初めてこんな気持ちになった

叶いもしないこの願い　
あなたがまた私を好きになる　そんな儚い　私の願い
今日もあなたに会いたい

一人になると考えてしまう
あの時　私　忘れたよかったの？　でもこの涙が答えでしょう

心は嘘をつけない

恋がこんなに苦しいなんて　恋がこんなに悲しいなんて　思わなかった
本気であなたを思って知った

あなたは私の中の忘れられぬ人　
全て捧げた人

もう二度と戻れなくても
いまはただあなた...あなたの事だけで
あなたの事ばかり

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

I just got back to Malaysia from Macao/Hong Kong to see my sister on friday and OMG does she work in the coolest hotel ever!! Seriously if any of you guys get the chance, go to The Venetian in Macao. Its freaking VENICE inside a hotel!!! With canals, and gondolas and singing italians!! And there are 350 shops inside!! Though mostly high end brands like Louis Vuitton and Gucci.

It was so good to see my sister Michell though. Since she left Perth about 4 years ago, I've only seen her 3 times (>A<).
So my parents and I went to Macao, stayed at her hotel for 2 nights, then she took leave and we went to Hong Kong for a week (SHOPPING PARADISE!), then back to Macau for 2 nights. I bought so much that I almost couldn't get it all back to Malaysia LOL.

Michell, bless her, was so super nice. She bought me a Vivienne Westwood necklace for my birthday, and bought a whole lot of other stuff for me =D. My dad got me a Vivienne necklace and bracelet, and my mum was gonna get me a Vivienne bag but none of the bags this season were that nice. I also got new glasses! I got my eyes checked again in Macau and turns out my astigmatism has increased in both eyes, and my right eye is now short sighted! No wonder I could barely see far, even with my glasses on! But now I've got pretty Vivienne glasses that make me happy and able to see =D.
I'll upload all my photos onto facebook, and a couple of them on LJ when I get a chance to use my dad's computer, coz the laptop I'm using now is super ghey >__>.

I gotta get up early tomorrow (or rather later on today) to make the rounds to my mum and dad's home towns to visit the relatives. *sighs* I don't really know any of my rellies well since I've been in Australia practically my whole life, and there are oh so many of them, so it'll be a lot of nodding and smiling. I'm expecting lots of comments like "oh she looks just like a foreigner" since I've gone and dyed my hair blonde like a white girl(not being racist!). Luckily I don't wear coloured contacts XD.

ARGH my eyes are really burning now coz of the incense stuff that my dad is burning for chinese new year. Definitely gotta go sleep now.

human bio exam in 7 hours!!

I'm totally not prepared for it.

going to be pulling an all-nighter as usual before an exam.

hopefully I'll be able to know enough to bull shit my way through and pass (>A<)

SO I haven't gone to the library yet.

Why?

because I've been reading Aki's blog (>__>)

ANYWAY, I'm posting because it seems Aki is a fan of KUROSHITSUJI!!!
He wrote that Ciel is cute and that he's looking forward to the anime.
awwwwww ♥

Since I have being nocturnal for a week, I've decided I need to become normal again. So I'm not allowed to sleep until tonight. Usually, I would've gone to sleep at around 8am and woken up at 6pm.

Taking a break from study, again, by watching SID's Sentimental Macchiato dvd tv show and they are freaking hilarious. Especially Yuuya and Mao. Aki is slightly boring but at least he makes up for it by being good looking. He looks like Nakamura Yuichi!
I remember when I first saw SID in Shoxx or something back in '04 and thinking Aki was ridiculously good looking (>A<)

I haven't really been into Jrock for a while now. The only band I've kept up with since their debut, and seriously love their music and the members is Alice Nine.

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I think I might go to the library today. Need to get some serious studying done without distractions. Exams are looming closer!

I just checked the students discussion board for Microbiology and the unit coordinator posted up the results for the practical exam.

I PASSED!

I GOT 100%!

so relieved. thats one less thing to worry about.
I was calculating how much I'de need in the exam to pass Statistics, and luckily its not an insane 90%. I'll only need about 60% so thats at least achievable.

(>A<)

the sound of rain against the roof
the dull grey light inside
the chilly cold

its peaceful

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it was quite hot for a while but these few days have been cold and rainy.
strange.

exams. next week.

*sighs*

For the past month, apart from going to uni and dance, I've basically holed myself up at home studying. and reading manga.
And for once, I'm determined to do well.

10th Mon: Human Biology
11th Tues: Microbiology
12th Wed: Statistical Data Analysis *shudders*
13th Thur: Human Bio (practical)
14th Fri: Chemistry
17h Mon: Medical Laboratory Science

I'm pretty scared of failing statistics because maths is gay and I hate it, but I'de hate it even more if I had to repeat the damn unit. and did I mention I HATE IT.
srsly, all other health sciences get to do this super easy stats unit, but NO medical science has to do this gay ass stats unit that engineering and computer science and other nerdy science courses do.

OK thats all for my i-hate-maths rant. Going back to studying.

Mihara Mitsukazu is my favourite mangaka. Not only because of the beautiful artwork and gothic lolita fashion, but more importantly the storyline. She illustrates reality with a touch of morbidity that just makes it even more real, yet extremely touching. Her stories really make me question a lot of things about life.

I've been reading "The Embalmer", and in one chapter, there is a typical scenario of 'loved one lying on death bed while the main character rushes in to bring good news only to realize it's too late'. And it reminds me of something thats always on my mind. Whenever my mum goes out, especially at night which she frequently does, I get scared that she won't come home. That if I don't say good bye and see her out the door, I'll regret it when it's too late. As the clock is ticking away, I start imagining all sorts of things that might've happened and I just get so scared.

I often think:

Death, and then?
memories, emotions, thoughts, feelings;
how are they made, where do they come from, where do they all go after death.

Obviously theres a physiological explanation for it but I always wonder in a abstract kind of way.

Particularly, why is it that I look at the world through my eyes?
what is it like to look through someone else's?
When my current body dies, will my soul move on to live in another body and look through a pair of eyes again?
Will I ponder the same questions again?

It's a never ending cycle of wondering and pondering.

wow, the last time i posted was TEN MONTHS AGO ! ! !

HEY GUYS

I shouldn't come back all pessimistic but whatever.
I don't know why but recently I've been feeling really anti-social. It's not like I particularly avoid people, or act all down and emo all the time, in fact I'm still the same normal friendly self when I see people. BUT I just don't get that urge to go out or call people up to meet anymore.
I've been thinking, I've met heaps and heaps of people this year, and made lots of friends but for the majority of them, I feel like they're just normal surface-type friends who I don't get much out of being friends with. I know its kinda cruel to say something like that.
Maybe I've just been too caught up with social activities, exhausted my social party-ness.

Good timing too, because exams are coming up in 2 weeks and I'm starting to freak out. Been waaaaaay too slack this semeseter. I really don't want to fail anything else because I don't want to do an extra year of uni. PLUS my parents would shoot me. I never told them about my 1 failed unit last semester. =/

Other than my recent emo-ness, life has been pretty swell this year. Except for the uni part. Oh and my recent weight gain. Turning into a fat slob really does no good for my current mental state. lol.



=)

みんな 久しぶり！！

It's been AGES since I last updated.
I was actually thinking of just not bothering anymore but since I've got so much spare time now, I might as well start blogging again.

Firstly:

I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL ! !

about 2 months ago.
I did really badly in TEE(uni entrance exam) though, and failed english lit.*hides face in shame*. So had to come back to Perth early to do the STAT test to show my english competence. Uni main round offers are coming out soon, so hopefully I got into uni (>A<)

About a month ago, I went to Shanghai for 2 weeks for an intensive dance trip.
it was...intense.
but really really fun.
I'de never spoken so much mandarin in my life before!

After that I went back to malaysia for 3 days, and I've been back in Perth for 2 weeks now.
ITS SO BOOOORRRIING!!!!
All I do is eat, sleep, and watch jdramas.
maybe I should find a job. (-_-);

Making a quick post just to say:

I'M NOT DEAD YET!!

Came back to Perth on friday but I've been too lazy to blog, and partly because my computer died and I just fixed the internet on my laptop.

I've got Oz Concert tonight for Australia Day, having a rehearsal before that at 4 so I better get going. (>A<).

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